Values Over Fear

OCD is loud and everything feels contaminated-

all I can think about is cleaning and showering. So what am I doing?

I came outside to the hot tub, turned the music up, and I’m sitting with the anxiety instead of running from it. The urge to go inside and compulse is strong, yet I’m choosing my values instead. I’m doing something I enjoy rather than giving in. It’s hard not to listen to OCD, but I’m choosing not to let it win. Right now, courage looks like acknowledging the OCD thoughts and letting them be. It is uncomfortable to sit with the anxiety, but I know that eventually, it will come down. OCD tells me I need to take a shower and get clean. But the truth is, I’m fine. The more I practice sitting with discomfort, the easier it becomes to fight OCD. Every compulsion resisted is a step forward. OCD is loud, but I am stronger than it. I can embrace uncertainty instead of letting fear take over.